i havent posted in a while. i was recently in a bad car accident. one of my injuries includes a broken right arm and the way its casted, it’s really hard to type or anything. i’ll try and be back on soon.

so even though today started off rough, it basically became great. 

so i finally got the room im staying in at my mothers (until i finish emptying out my old room) semi decent looking. its my brother’s old room and he left it a MESS and i picked it up best i could, brought my ps3 to hook up to the TV (that i put on the desk, rather than leave it on the floor) and ive been loving not dealing with “other” drama that i have been for a while.

then i had a doctor’s appointment today. i STILL havent heard anything back from Medicaid and hopefully the crap i brought them today reminds them that i exist and am still pregnant and in need of some insurance please!!!

well today at my doc’s appointment i brought my mother with me since the baby’s father is hundreds of miles away atm. and my mother begged to come and i knew it would raise her spirits a bit. oh yea…tuesday she fell down the stairs and broke her nose and both of her arms and is completely useless basically right now. her arms arent casted, since they broke at the elbow and are still enflamed, she’s in 2 slings. 

ANYWHO……i had my first sonogram and…

HERE HE/SHE IS!!!!!

unfortunately, this was the only picture i got. the lady had an attitude and when my mom asked if we got a picture she said “i only give ONE per session!” clicked print and said “Here!” i was kinda upset this is the pic i got. the first image i say of him/her, they were sideways and i could perfectly make out the skull, and both legs and arms, and body, and u could see the heart and stomach. a perfect lil baby skeleton. but this is what i got. a creepy alien/demon lol

she tried guessing the sex and said girl but she couldnt get a good shot at all and my mom (who knows how to read these things) says there was no way she could have even guessed girl from what the lady was looking at.  so still hoping for a boy but id be tickled with a girl too. 

then when i text a pic of it to my boyfriend, he called me and talked for like an hour. we havent talked on the phone in ages. and good news…i should be in miami in about 2-3 weeks!!! 

OH YEA!!!….so i saw a friend on mine’s sonogram before. they had a camera in with them recording it. and when the lady clicked on the heart, it showed the heartbeat. like the rhythm going up and down. well when she said “here’s the heart” and clicked on mine, the lines on the side of the screen were all STRAIGHT! i litterally felt my own heart stop and thought there was no heartbeat. the lady even had an odd face. then she goes “its about 168 beats a minute.” and i felt the biggest rush of relief! then i got to see it kicking and moving all around. this thing is very active right now lol 

hello-hipbones:

justbreathe831:

mind-against-body:

sle4zy:

RIP Whitney Houston 1963-2012

You will be missed <3

I really hope someone realized that this isn’t Whitney Houston….

Why did I laugh so hard at this? Lol that’s Janet Jackson…

that’s Janet Jackson, dumbass.

HAHAHAHAH omg i laughed my ass off too. def not whitney houston

i love pen pals and swapsies and just sending and receiving nifties in the mail.

but everytime i find where people do swaps there’s all these stupid rules, $20 limits, must be popular or ur not invited, ect ect. its all so sucky. i just wanna say “hey! who wants something nifty in the mail?! i send u something u send me something. one day its a craft. next time its a tshirt i dont want anymore, maybe a mix cd of music i like and share with you, whatever! no spending limit, no popularity contest, just trust that ur not a douche who asks for free stuff then disappears.

im gonna be sitting at home alone with no car and no job and no friends soon. i need something to do. and im moving and going thru all my stuff trying to get rid of some of it. some i plan to try and sell and some id love to swap or something.

id especially love to swap cute baby crafts beings tho im pregnant now. 

i know about swap-bot but alot of what i look at has those stupid rules and u must have a “good profile and lots of swaps and ratings”. im new. thats impossible. and whats a “good” profile? i like what they do and make myself seem like a hipster high schooler? urgh.

so this morning when i got off work i was feeling rather amazing and all excited to make fatty good foods to nom for superbowl. i get home and sleep maybe an hour before i wake up with the worst pains ive ever had in my stomach. so bad im violently puking and crying.

i text my mom cause i started getting really scared. she said not to completely freak out unless im bleeding. i wasnt but i could tell i was dehydrated really bad and i started pissing out my ass (TMI sorry) she asked if i wanted her to pick me up and i said i would drive cause shes only 10 minutes away and i got a slight moment of feeling halfway decent. my doctor said to treat it as the flu unless it got worse and if  its still the same tommorow, go to the ER.

so this has been my whole day until now. im finally getting a break and not as scared. i just really hope nothing is truly wrong. i always feel like if something is wrong with me, something is wrong with my baby.